A week from today I go up to New Hampshire to look at potential apartments. It didn’t really hit me before now that I really am moving. Soon.
When I used to think about what it would be like when I finally moved, I didn’t think it would be like this. I thought I would be at a different point in my life. To be honest, I thought I would move when I found that special someone and we became engaged. I didn’t think I would ever move when I’m single or move to attend grad school. I always thought I was bound to Boston in a way, having grown up in the Boston area all my life. As an undergrad, I commuted from home. Although I applied to non-Boston area schools for grad school, in the back of my mind I always thought I would attend a Boston area school for grad school and live at home, again commuting to school.
I’m the type of person who has a tendency to plan their life, and usually what happens is that my life basically goes in a direction I did not plan. I like to think of it as the Universe’s way of reminding me that I can not control everything and that what I view as the best plan is not what’s actually best.
When I graduated from college, my plan was to get a job that was just a paycheck while I focused on my writing career, which back then I thought was going to take off almost immediately. I also thought I was ready to be in a relationship with a person I could see myself settling down with.
What ended up happening was I quickly realized the realities of how hard the economy is, especially to college graduates, and that the publishing industry was as harsh after college as it was when I was in college. As far as my love life went, I did meet a guy who I thought I could see myself settling down with one day; unfortunately, he turned out to be the type who says all the right things, but doesn’t follow through on them.
I’m thankful my life didn’t turn out the way I planned it because if it had I would have missed out on so many wonderful opportunities and would have ultimately ended up being unhappy. As I move forward, I am eager to see which direction my life takes me. For the present, that direction is New Hampshire.